Demons, Gods and other Holy creatures know that losing weight isn’t easy for my mental health. It confuses me a lot that I don’t have to find the clothes in the biggest sizes anymore and that my weight isn’t something to hide anymore but something that is a work in progress.
It has been three months since I started at The Danish Weight Control Services (De danske vægtkonsulenter) and it has been three months with a lot of changes. Not only think my body but also more mentally. I have to admit that when my weight said 88,2 kg, yes I was embarrassed by it, but now that I’m losing weight and my body mass becomes smaller is it more the mental issue I have to deal with.
It can be hard to explain to people who hasn’t been overweight the most of their life but finally realize that losing the kilos isn’t hard at all is a huge blow is ones pride. Not only that but I can wear a size 42 pants again… You guys have no idea how many years it has been since I have been able to fit pair of those.
Since I have lost a lot of centimeters around my hips and waistline have I gone from a size XXL/Xl to an L is everything. No later than here yesterday was I in H&M to buy new tank tops because the old ones began to look like those oversized T-Shits many people sleep in.
Losing weight by this program isn’t hard; there will of course be ups and downs. I started at a weight at 88,2 kg three months ago but today it says 80 kg.
I have in 3 months lost 8,2 kilos and... 42 centimeters in total so far!
Waistline: from 107 cm --> 99 cm
Neck: from 35 cm --> 34 cm
Hips: from 120 cm --> 111 cm
Thighs: 68 cm --> 60 cm
Diaphragm: from 92 cm --> 84 cm
Chest: from 102 cm --> 96 cm
Upper arm: from 31 cm --> 29 cm
I can see the changes in the mirror and also some people say that they can see they changes and of course it makes me happy. But I can help but feeling confused as well. I have set a goal that I will lose 1,8 kg before Christmas so I have lost a total of 10 kg. before New Years, but then again; me and two others has a bet of 4 kgs. before Christmas which is a challenge I have accepted.
But losing 10 kg. before Chrismas and afterwards 10 kg. before SVS in Herning in May so I can cosplay Hellequin from Assassin's Creed Brotherhood Multiplayer with a body that matches hers =D